Wow, that last post really seemed to have touched a nerve - my own included.
Why are relationships so hard to make work? Just look at the
comments section in that last post and you will see why. So many varied reasons,
so many individual stories of heartache and triumph...it blew my mind.
Of course, how can that question not touch a raw nerve? Relationships are what define us. Without the input of other people we have very little framework outside of ourselves to figure out who we are. For example, I spend a lot of time creating things, but without other people to read and see what I make, the effort of creating falls a little flat.
Yes, even if I lived in a vacuum, I would still be moved to write and make stuff, but the thrill of having someone else experience my creation is like nothing else out there...okay, it's probably on par with falling in love, but that happens so, so, so infrequently (like once every trillion years) that I gotta rely on creating stuff to get my jollies off.
But whether it's being creative or falling in love, the common denominator is 'being experienced'. When someone experiences us through our work or through falling in love with us, it's like we become immortal for that moment. We don't just exist in our own heads, we exist in the minds of the people we have touched.
It's like being on your computer vs. being on your computer that's connected to the Internet.
I like the idea of being connected, of knowing that as I write this, there will be people out there who will read my words and be affected by them. Negatively or positively, I can't control...just that the act of 'being experienced' is enough.